God wants us to believe in Him

I know it is an obvious statement. But it is not one that is always easily lived out. For me it is scary to believe the best about God. I think if I trust Him completely He will let me down. I think if I share my heart with Him He will leave me. These are not conscience thoughts. But they are lived out in my actions. We decide how close we get to God. John wasn't the only disciple who could have gotten close enough to lay his head on the Lord's chest he was just the only one that did. Our past and perceptions can keep us from a deep intimacy with the Lord. Our fear drives us from Him. A friend once told me when God reveals deep dark places in our hearts it is only new to us not Him. He has always seen those places. He chose to save us when our whole heart was one deep dark place. Jeremiah 17:7-9 7 Blessed is the man that trusteth in the LORD, and whose hope the LORD is. 8 For he shall be as a tree planted by the waters, and that spreadeth out her roots by the river, and shall not see when heat cometh, but her leaf shall be green; and shall not be careful in the year of drought, neither shall cease from yielding fruit. 9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? God knows our hearts and He still wants to be our hope, our strength, and our rock. So believe in Him trust in Him hope in Him and He will not let you down. Our outward circumstances may not be to our liking but He will never leave us or forsake us and he offers a peace that surpasses all understanding and a joy unspeakable.